Jason and I had the privilege to go see Fireproof. This film is more than just about saving and fireproofing your marriage, it's a ministry through the making of a movie with powerful and strong messages proving that a marriage is worth saving while giving all the glory to God. We laughed, I cried, and was praising God throughout this film.

I started this post awhile ago, okay a few days ago but haven't had the time to post.

Here is the funny!
I was reading a blog "Bring the Rain". It's one I read almost everyday. She writes SO well and she makes me laugh and just puts a smile on my face. Anyway, I was baking chocolate chip cookies tonight. I really did NEED it lol. I get to my last batch while reading her blog and don't hear my timer go off, suddenly I smell something burning wondering "what in the world?"... I look over and see smoke rising from the oven!! I rush over to save my cookies and it was too late my kitchen became engulfed in smoke and my cookies were burnt and once I got them out I rushed over to the smoke alarm to cover it before it sounds off and my kids practice getting out of the house because mom tried to burn the house down reading a blog LOL!!!

We had a really long week and lots of work got done including I finished reading the entire book of Genesis reading it to them. There is a lot of reading between teaching and reading everything for History so by the end of my days I am pretty tired. I think this week caught up to the girls. As usual I put my kids to bed at 8pm every night and they are usually up by 7:30am the next morning or 7:45 at the latest. Sometimes of Friday's they can stay up but last night they went to bed at the normal routine hour. Well! I got kinda worried this morning because time was nearing 9:45am. I went into their room and they were still out like a light. Then 10am rolls around and they are still sleeping and Michael is getting tired for his nap. Finally at 10:10 I hear little feet trample down the stairs with them saying "I guess I was really tired".

I guess so too! I tired my kids out this week lol. To be honest I need to recover as well.

I just joined twitter. Why? Because Jason told me I needed to lol
So if you are on there, I am proverbsmom. :)

I am feeling a little queasy here and there but nothing too bad just yet. I have lost my taste for Coffee, can you believe it, yeah me too! And Cameron, fortunately we went out the other night just in time because nothing taste right to me now and anything sweet makes my face turn green. Oh for the love of tiramisu. Anyway, I don't feel so great today. I need to go buy some groceries and just the thought of walking through walmart is making me think twice about going. I don't know if I will get queasy and if I do how bad will it get? You know people will be staring wondering who and what is wrong with the woman who is resting her head in the crook of her arm on the cart not going anywhere...... but, here is the funny part.....

With feeling queasy like I do I started feeling a little bit like there has to be a better way to get some food in this house so I don't have to leave .... other thank trying to talk Jason into going for me......yeah, right ;p he's not going to let me getaway with sending him because I should be a pro at being pregnant by now right....HA! It's obvious we are not having out first baby where he will go out of his way to help LOL...... He has to work 3-11pm anyway.

SO, I found executivegrocery.com/index.html LOL.....okay, so I am not really going to do this nor could I afford it but the thought was definitely something I was flirting around with lol......and of course there is Schwans that my mother used to buy and it's REALLY expensive! www.schwans.com/buy-groceries-online.htm so I won't be doing that either. Some of their food is really good, most is very high in fat as well.

Eventually I need to drag myself out and buy some groceries. I was thinking I may just buy for the next 2-3 days and then go back .......or not lol

What a cute face I have hu? LOL

Two of my absolute favorite seasons is Fall and Spring. I have downloaded some really nice Free digital Fall scrapbooking designs and I hope to update the look of my blog for the season. I am still learning so it may take awhile. I have so much fun playing learing how to do my blog. I have tought myself a lot of html and I learned how to add three colunms becuase I like things that are cemetricle. Okay, I did get a bit lazy, I copied and pasted my codes instead of typing most of them lol.... I know what y'all are thinking...."Here she goes again"....LOL I can't help myself! It's like buying new shoes or handbags or decorations or clothes (which I really need). You are probabaly thinking I am not content, don't worry, I am, I just love to decorate, someday I might even get good at it lol. You should see how often I used to rearrange furniture! I don't have much room now but I still find a way for that "fresh" look. It's amazing how you can give your room a brand new look by araging pictures and decorations without spending a dime, not that I haven't thought about it. I make due with what I have though! Alright, time to make some coffee and M is making me a present........oy


Here are some pix, of my my kitchen that is also our homeschool class room. The microwave isn't in front of this map anymore but that explains the tea pot lol
See...I am smart! I put my easel board low so I can sit in the chair, I don't have to stand.
See the trash can in the sink? well, yes I scrub my trash cans, can't help myself.

Michael's birthday party was very low key. We had a few friends over and just had cake and ice cream. The cake was adorable, my friend Rebekah made it for him.











Amber and Elleigh being cute preteens
This is his version of digging in lol
hmmmm....is this really mine?
oh it is......

I can't believe my baby boy is 1 already! He makes me smile and laugh every day. I am hoping to put together a post of how much he has grown since bring him home from the hospital.

I am beat. It's been a CRAZY week. First, I had to deal with a soon to be teenager who only gave me one hard day this week....so far. I am very proud of her though, after a day of strict discipline and being consistent with her she has been like a new child and I accredit some of this to Dr. leman in his book Have a New Kid by Friday. He is a father of 5 and his tools work. Some things we already knew and most we are so thankful for. If you have read his book you will understand what I am about to tell you, however, if you have not then just remember the title once I have shared this funny short story of Alyssa.

me: .....talking with Jason at the table about how well the tools in this book are working for us.

Alyssa: Walks in the kitchen..... Hey! I went to the book store and found a new book called Have a New Mother by Thanksgiving!

Me and Jason: DIE LAUGHING!!!


Okay, so on to my crazy day, week, and well, life!
So Monday or Tuesday I was washing clothes and suddenly there was water every where! We are talking the laundry unit and the kitchen! I don't have pix because, M slipped and had to help him back up, then I had to make my way to the washer with out falling myself to see what the problem was. The water hose had come out of it's hole so during the rince cycle while water is supposed to be traveling down the hole that is in between the hot water hose and the cold water hose it was instead standing up and shooting out water EVERY WHERE I tell you! I spent a good half hour mopping ect, while M is screaming his head off, and I had to work fast to save books and crayons from getting water damage that M had dumped all over the floor........shew. If you know me well, you know I couldn' just mop, I wanted to wipe down my base boards and the wall that had a little dust since I had to pull the washer and dryer out anyway.

Anyway, Yesterday went okay, Jason has applied for a new job but has to go through a few test first so we will see. I think we are both feeling a little stressed about our fiances and the fact that his current job isn't meeting our needs and it took it's toll on us today. It's been a very tiring day, and usually Jason and I never argue over anything, but we got a bit snippy with each other today and we never do that either. We never do this and we especially never do it in front of the children so when they heard us they looked at each other, shrubbed their shoulders and wasn't sure what to think or do the whole 5 min that it was. He went to financial aid today for some additional help so please pray for that. There are a few things we have applied for to improve our situation until he finds a better paying job. I know there are sacrifices to made when going to seminary, however, we have been here three years now, not that I am trying to complain because there are people who have been here longer or have traveled this road a lot longer. I think it's starting to wear on me a little. Someday it's gonna feel weird when he's not in school anymore but actually he will still be in school only this time he will be the professor and not the student, I probably shouldn't say that because he'll come home with a new degree he wants to earn ;p

I love that he loves learning, and he would stay in school taking classes the rest of his life if he could (his dream job), but right now I am at a point where I am ready to be done. I don't tell him this because I want to support him and he appreciates all the sacrifices and support I make and give him to help him accomplish what God has called us to do. I am just tired. I am also weepy because I am pregnant.....good excuse I guess. We have been making sacrifices since the day we married almost eight years ago. I am so tired of struggling every month for the last eight years and now having to worry if the electric is too high one month and if there will be an extra shift available to pick up so we can pay it. My dad was a blessing for M's b-day, bought M 2 packages of diapers, milk for him and us, plus juice for the kids for M's birthday. You would have thought it was my birthday though. LOL

I am praying for a better week next week and hoping some things are going to fall into place. my spirits are up, I am not worried because I know God is in control, he just won't let me help lol...... Y'all bear with me, I am not usually like this.........I kinda feel withdrawn at times or falling apart. While other times I feel "put together". I am hanging in there, and if you can't cry you laugh, Or do both at the same time ...it's just as good. I feel odd venting all of this, I am usually very private about these kind of issues or I share my thoughts with a close friend but it all came out and all at once. Honestly my mood today and right now, I am just here in a zone, staring at what I am writing and falling asleep actually so if I start to make no sense you know why ;p

Sorry it's so long, I feel better getting it off my chest....hope I didn't loose you.
Good Night.
xoxo <-- I am so loving lol

CORRECTION! I am EDITING while I tell you this!! DO NOT CLICK ON THE LINK FROM THE FIRST POST To I am pregnant dot com!!!!!! If you click on it it will take you to a porn site!!!!! I am SO SORRY!! You are laughing at me aren't you! I can't believe I typed it wrong.....that alone says I am prego........ ;p

The correct Link IS www.i-am-pregnant.com

So far my pregnancy symptoms are going well. According to www.i-am-pregnant.com I am 5 weeks pregnant. This is the same website I visited all the time when I was pregnant with Michael. I am very tired at times which is normal. I am not sick.... yet....thank God. I am loosing my apatite a little bit at times but nothing consistent. However, I am scatter brained, my driving skills are questionable and transposing has kicked into high gear. In fact, I told Jason something yesterday and my sentence was completely backwards and yet he still understood me ;p

My poor children are at the mercy of my transposing, Amber found herself correcting me a couple of time while writing math problems on the board.
I gave a gentle smile and said "Well, it won't last forever".

We had fun today, we did groups and sub groupings. They had so much fun with the stickers I bought and they got creative. We covered the seasons, people, animals, etc....I will take pictures and hopefully I can remember to get my camera cord back from Jason and hopefully the computer will let me up load all my pictures.

P.s....I called and told my mother I was pregnant and she is excited. She called this morning to tell me she was drawing a picture of a choo-choo-train for Michael. She didn't talk long but I am happy she called.

There a few things I am known, by Jason, for doing in my sleep. I have talked in my sleep, I have walked in my sleep (haven't since we lived in TX though), grind my teeth and apparently now a grunting growl?

I haven't grind my teeth in a long long time. I remember when Jason and I first married I was under a good amount of stress and I would wake up in the middle of the night to him holding my jaw with his hand very gently to stop me. I never knew he did this until one night it woke me and my thoughts were "what is he doing to me?" but I wasn't fully awake to ask him so I guess I just feel back to sleep. He usually tells me the next morning what I did.

Well, this morning after we get up he said I was grinding my teeth really bad last night and I was making this low grunting growl sound until he reached over and gently held my jaw to stop me. He said it was more than I usually do. I guess I am under a good amount of stress....can't imagine why. The dangerous thing though is that I have TMJ so if I grind my teeth it makes it worse.

My biggest problem is that I bottle most my feelings up. I will go through out my day and with out sharing with even Jason my concerns, fears, etc....I know God is in control and I have a BEAUTIFUL inheritance :) (this keeps running through my brain) but I am a problem solver, not as much as Jason, but when I see a situation or problem I will analyze and analyze and I am known for OVER analyzing how to fix it.

I don't like knowing what to do and I really don't like knowing what's going to happen. This maybe the area that will label me as a controlling person. So as I try to take on the world myself and fail miserably at it while my emotions are reeling out of control but not completely.....yet?, I turn to the only hope I have, the Lord. Why would I be so stressed over such a blessing that comes from the Lord? He does NOT make mistakes! He has chosen to open my womb and create life, to increase HIS Inheritance! WOW, I am starting to cry (that would be the reeling emotions), I know God will take care of us because He always has. And I feel so honored that he would choose to increase His inheritance by giving us another child to raise in our home, His child who will be taught about His son Jesus, and raised to be a follower of Christ to further the Kingdom of God.

ESV
Psalm 127:3-5
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.

Psalm 136: 13-16
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.



To Him be the glory forever! Now I have a party to get ready for.... ;)

Oh, where to even begin. Well, you all know that I have weaned Michael before going to see Beth Moore. Well, my chest has continued to hurt from what I thought was still drying up but taking forever yet not that big of a deal just annoying. So, I have been expecting "Aunt Flow" to arrive on her usual punctual time, 1 day came and she didn't show, 2 days came and I'm thinking my hormones are needing to balance due to just ending nursing.

So on the third day I was thinking hmmm...."maybe I should take a pregnancy test?" I was emailing Cameron about something, don't remember what, but then I told her my thoughts, and that I was going to buy a test. I then told Jason after he woke up that I was going to buy a test and he got quite then said "Just wait". Hmmmm, no. I went to the store, came home and while the girls are anxiously waiting outside the bathroom door I took the test. I bought the equate brand. They have always worked just fine for me.

So, after taking the test, I look with just taking a glance and said "yeah, didn't think so" then I stand at my sink to wash my hands, reach over to pick the test up to throw it away and I look at it once more and there it was a PLUS sign. In denile I took another test since I bought the value pack, and it too turned up positive. I walk out of the bathroom door and here is how it went....

Amber: Well, you are aren't you

mom: It's positive as I show her the test

Amber: Great

Amber: I can't believe you are pregnant

mom: you can't?

mom: hmmmm.......WOW......I'm pregnant........as I slip away into what I feel like is a dream and I will awaken at any moment, or not.

Alyssa: mommie, how does the test work, how does it tell you you are pregnant?

mom: Well, the test is for mommie's to go potty with and then (while pointing) this part of the test will read this part of the test and tell mommie if I am going to have a baby or not.

Alyssa: Oh, then when can we pick a girl, because I want a baby sister.

Amber: I want another brother

Alyssa: begins to cry....no that's not fair we already have one I want a sister, mommie can we pick a sister

mom: All I could do was laugh so hard with tears while trying to expalin to Alyssa that we don't just pick what we want.

Y'all, it was SO FUNNY! Then they continued the day with naming the baby.

Oaky, after taking care of Alyssa's understanding I got into the van and drove over to our truck parked on campus because Jason was in class when I took the test. I put the test on the dash board so he would see it first thing before coming home. He got out of class, came home to me sitting on the front porch waiting for him. He drove up with a huge smile on his face, he gets out still smiling and I ask him how he feels....he said "Happy but a little nervous" I said "yeah, me too".

That's not all folks. I was still in denial, I went to Dr. Knight on campus for another test and to get an official "yes you are" so we can get medical coverage. Sure enough......I AM PREGNANT. Talk about a shock and awe day. Not much school work got done either. We are happy and the excitement is growing.

Now, I remember telling Jason when I thought I was pregnant with Alyssa, he gave me the raised eyebrow and did not believe me. Then I told him the same thing with Michael and there again he did not believe me, and made me wait that time because we were in FL for Christmas. We finally bought a test and I was so nervous after taking it that I covered it with a towel and then made him go into the bathroom (while at his parents house a couple days before Christmas) to look at it and sure enough it was positive too....
you would think by now he would believe me lol... grant it 3 or 4 months ago I took a test because I thought I was then too, but it's not like I take them all the time lol


Anyway, we have A LOT of details to work out and I am very very fatigue! Lift us up in prayer because we sure do need it.

And what a day it was.......Oh-my-word! Okay, this momma is TIRED. I was up at six to begin my day with breakfast and God's word before the other Spencer peeps got up. I literally had to make all of them, including Jason get out of bed. Well, except Michael. They all got up at 7:30, got dressed for the day, made beds, tidy up, and to the kitchen for breakfast at 8am. Family bible study at 8:30 after the kitchen has been cleaned up from breakfast, and around 10 minuets till 9 we tidy up the down stairs living room, bathroom, etc.... start school at 9am.

The last couple of weeks I have been reviewing with the girls and it's gone smooth. Today though, I am not sure what happened! Michael has been whiny and refused to take his "normal" naps, he just wanted me to hold him while he played with/in my hair, then I had to go to the RAC at 11:30 and takes a good while for some food and left with literally 5 things. Not that I am complaning though because it's a blessing no matter what, but I was hoping to get canned beef stew for the kids. then I was getting lost using my History curriculum from Sonlight (my first time)......of course it would have helped if I had actually READ through most the material before starting ya know, instead of just glancing and such. Hey....what can I say, I have a lot of confidence in myself LOL. Then it was off to Garret Manor to drop Amber and Alyssa off for their music lessons at 3:30.

Ironically, I am not having a hard time in Math. English is going well too. I am using Modern Curriculum Press for Math and Shurley for English. Although, I am most likely going to switch to Singapore Math next year because Modern C Press Math stops at 6th grade.

Things were C R A Z Y around here today!! I regret not taking any pictures, but apparently I didn't even think about it....I will post some and hopefully my computer will let me up load!! It won't let me up load any more videos because it claims I have no more storage. Jason supposedly fixed it but she's arguing with him and he back at her lol we'll just have to see who wins.

Anyway, I was sharing with Cameron that I think the hardest part about homeschooling for me will be all the talking I have to do. It's very tiring and I never talk that much, ever. Since I can't email my kids I will just have to get over it ;p It's no wonder why Jason never felt like talking when he got home from work after a full day of teaching. The girls kept asking me if I was "okay". "Hmmm...yes, mom is okay" (shhh they have no idea how scattered I feel ;) However, I must say I have absolutely NO stress! No due dates, no driving all over God's creation and house work got done by sticking to our routine.

Well...I am so exhausted I am going to sleep so I can start all over again tomorrow.