I'm back.......sort of.
Jason, Amber, and Alyssa do not start school till next week so we have been enjoying our time together. Jason and I started a new work out program this week as well. This one involves more movements than just my regular walking routine.

I woke up this morning feeling sore. Apparently I am out of shape, and I am sore in places I didn't know I have, not to mention the new weight scale I bought today told me I tacked on a few extra pounds from the holidays! I thought I had, but I wasn't sure. I am disciplined with working out, but not with eating food! What am I to do?!?!?

We took before pictures of each other with showing our front, side, and behind view. This way, we can go back and see the results we will have made. I could just cry...I have never looked like this. I know I just had my third baby, but I just feel unhealthy. I am sure my weight is contributing to my feet hurting, and my knees! The pictures are an eye opener though, sigh........I think I would go to weight watchers for help, and support, but right now I don't think I can afford it. I can probably find some recipes online though.

Another thing Jason told me was that when you are stressed your body will store fat. Then he reminded me how from July, up to now, I have been under an extreme amount of stress, this is very true, you know how hard it is to have your own mother go over a year, and refuse to talk to you, and because she doesn't like you! ARGH.....I tend to bottle things up etc.......not healthy!

I will say my stress level is getting better, but for a few months it was pretty bad, especially with Jason's job situations, and a laundry list of other things including my in-laws were right when they told us......."Having a third baby changes EVERYTHING, and it's totally different than just having the two." Dear God, I had no idea how right they were!

Lord bless them for trying to help us, and prepare us for this roller coaster ride!!! Sometimes I want to sit, and just cry because I am sooo tired, but I don't have time! My work is never done! Maybe this summer I will have time for a mini nervous breakdown....but I doubt it LOL ;p Anyone remember what a nap is!?
I don't!

I know I need to relax, and give more to God, but you all know what a control freak I can be ;p

So there, woe is me!