I have a prayer request. After 19 months of my mother not wanting to talk to me I have finally written her a letter, or I should say 8 different letters so it will not be over whelming to read and not too much with each letter being 3-5 pages long. I have spent days and hours writing to her in hopes that something positive will turn out. I have taken great care with what I have written. I ask for prayer because I am not sure what her response will be. Also, she hates to read......not kidding, she hates to read and doesn't write anyone.....ever. I am praying that God will give her thirsty eyes for what I have to say and a softened heart to be receptive. In each letter I asked her to read what I wrote more than once. The reason I asked her to do this is because she never reads anything so her reading skills are not too good and I am concerned that she will miss understand everything I have written and I have this terrible insecurity she will throw them in the trash ( I've seen her do it with her sisters). If she writes me back It will be a wonderful sign that she wants to make things right with me and the beginning of a real change.......that is.....depending on what she writes. I am not asking for anyone to understand what I am going through especially because most of my friends have a positive healthy relationship with their mom that I would give anything to have with mine, but I would be so greatful if everyone would pray for me when you have your quite time with God. Nothing is too hard for God and I am taking a big step of faith in hopes that she will want to hear from me. When I talked to my brother I asked him to tell her I was sending a letter, when I asked him if she wants to hear from me he changed the subject :( I left it there because I didn't want to press the issue. So please pray for me she should have receive them by today. I Also sent pix of the kids and told her about Michael with pix as well.

These pix are really late! These are Easter morning pix. I only got a couple taken with my borrowed camera because it was cold outside and the girls ran away from me LOL I didn't get to take any of Michael, Jason or all of us together :(

For the past few weeks Mr. Michael has been doing his army crawl. Rather than getting to the point of actually crawling he has gotten faster at the army crawl. It's really funny!

Today as we are going through our normal morning clean up after breakfast, I had put Michael in the pack-n-play in the kitchen. It fits great in front of the window. I am going about my business while Amber is working on Math when she asks me why I put Michael in the pack-n-play Standing Up. With a confused puzzled look on my face I said "What?".......I look over and that little boy pulled himself up by placing his hands on the mesh walls to eventually standing while holding the the top rail. He decided to talk to us for awhile while he chewed on it lol He has been trying it for awhile but I thought it was going to be awhile before that would actually happen. Now we have got to lower his mattress in the crib. I really wish I had a camera! :(

He is so smart! When he turned 7 months old and I would lay him down in the crib he would move to the side of the crib where I walk out the door and he pull the bumper down to watch me leave! He would do the same thing waiting for some one to come back. He is so alert. He will move doors out of his way to find something and now he crawls over to the window and moves the curtain to the side to try and look out the living room window! He's only turning 8 months! I am impressed because Amber and Alyssa never did that! The window is quite long and sits low to the floor so he will be able to see out if he gets on his knees. I wonder if he is going to walk early? Amber walked on her 1 st yr birthday and Alyssa would not walk until she was 14 months! I practiced everyday with her and never carried her around unless I had to and the child just would not walk......she got heavy man! I think Michael is going to take off sooner rather than later, he does not like to sit still very long. I could make the argument "That's a boy" but then what excuse would I be able to use with Amber when she was little and even now she doesn't like to sit still.........lol

I think I got my work cut out for me this time though lol

His two bottom little teeth are coming in really good now! He loves Mum Mum crackers, carrots and sweet potatoes! He finally ate some cereal with bananas this morning mixed with a little powder formula. He would only eat it before with my breast milk, but I can't seem to pump on demand ;p

I want to mention something before I keep forgetting. we went over to Rebekah's house a week or so ago, she made Alyssa a late birthday cake (OH MY WORD....IT WAS SOOO GOOD!) and while we are there I was holding Azi and Jason was holding Michael. Well....I am talking and reminding them of when we would go walking etc... and Michael offered his pacifier to Azi! It was soooo cute! It would have been yuk if Azi had been old enough to take it though LOL

Children are such a blessing from the Lord! Each one is so different. They make me smile everyday.

Well, I had a visitor pop up yesterday out of the clear blue sky! It was actually a rude awakening which explained my little melt down last week. See, I tend to get a bit up-tight before Aunt Flow comes to town.

The problem is that it was completely unexpected. I had been feeling bad the last couple of weeks and wasn't sure what it was. I was crying over things I never cry over. I have not had Aunt Flow since December of 06 when I found out I was pregnant with Michael!

I never have a cycle when I am nursing...........guess I am wrong this time lol

When I nursed Alyssa Aunt Flow didn't come until I was completely done nursing her. I stopped nursing Alyssa at 11 months old because she bit me. Now when I say she bit me.... it was not a nibble! She bit so hard it drew blood and I was a purple blue red color....... I never felt such pain! I was done, I had Jason get her some formula until she was ready to have whole milk.

So right now I am in shock. I can't believe I started! I thought I was good to go at least September or October after nursing him for a yr! NOT. HA!

I just can't seem to wrap my brain around the "how" and "why".

In addition to my mini melt down.
I have Swept the Kitchen Floor FOUR TIMES today! And no, it's not because I wanted to..............

I am sure I haven't mentioned this mainly because I have not had the time, but Michael is crawling.......more like.....well.........an Army crawl they practice in boot camp! It's SO funny to watch! LOL

He also now has his first tooth! I will post about of it later..........someday ;p

I NEED THREE OF ME!!!
TOOOOO many things to do and NOT enough time, hands or hours!

Pulling my hair out!!!!!!!!

Just a stressed mommie of three right now :(

Our new van. It was truly a God thing how we got it. Originally we found a 1999 Honda Odyssey. The problem was there was no info if the timing belt had been changed, water pump etc.... so, Sunday night I was checking through Craig's list one more time and just happened to find a 2001 Honda Odyssey for about the same price and the timing belt and water pump had been changed, brakes etc. So I emailed and said we wanted to see it Sunday night (the night before we were supposed to get the 1999). He contacted us and we went to go see it.......he was 15 min away (unlike the 1999 which was about an hour away) so we get there and we test drove it and he (the seller) invited us in his house and we felt okay because it was a better neighborhood! Wish I could afford his house LOL

Anyway, we made him an offer and he was a little hesitant but Jason told him we were going to have to put new tires on it and we can't afford much else because we are in seminary right now and then he (the seller) perked up! It turned out he is a 1987 graduate from the seminary we are in and he is a pastor of a spanish church around the corner from his house! After he learned we are Christians and we are in seminary he was quick and delighted to come down in the price for us!! It was a GOD thing!
Our rental car had to be turned in on the same Monday we bought the Van! God opened the door to the EXACT Van we were praying for! Amazing!

It's a 2001 Honda Odyssey with 126,000 miles (much lower than the 1999) key less entry, Everything is Power controlled......everything!!! He kept every bit of paper work he has ever had done to the Van and gave it to us and most of the things he has had done are transferable to us the new owners.